It Happened.

Grandma passed away this morning at 6am.

Hopefully work will let me have Thursday-Monday off.

Denial is a river in Egypt.

Grandma smiled at me today when I went and saw her. I know I'm just being dumb, but I believed that everything going on right now isn't as bad as it seems. Just that one smile from here made me know she's not ready to go yet and that the nurse and my aunt overreacted with the "she'll die in 48 hours" talk.

Either way I'm making sure that my parents are okay. I don't want to see them crying because if I do I know I'll cry and I really don't want to because I have to be the strong one around here. It'll be hard, but I know I can do it.


Kunya,
When you feel it's the right time to enter heaven, go ahead. We won't stay in the way of you to meet up with your sisters and God.

Love,
Nong Fon

Cherry on top.

To top of my day (which was a mix of "I'm feeling awesome" to "I feel like shit")

I come home to find out that my grandma's health has gone so downhill that the nurse is saying death is coming soon.

I'm not ready for this.

Worried.

When I get a text from a co-worker where all they say is "serious talk tomorrow"

It means I'm going to be up worrying about it all night.

Thanks a lot.

Dreams

Last night I had a dream where I was pregnant.

According to the dream dictionary:

"To dream that you are pregnant, symbolizes an aspect of yourself or some aspect of your personal life that is growing and developing. You may not be ready to talk about it or act on it. Being pregnant in your dream may also represent the birth of a new idea, direction, project or goal."

Let's hope it's something good y/y?

Fate?

This song came on while texting a certain friend of mine.

Yeah...