When someone says they need to talk to you, but aren't ready to talk to you yet...wtf is that suppose to mean?!?

Heart to Heart

I want to have a heart to heart with someone. I had a heart to heart with my moleskine the other night, but it was a one-sided conversation.

Honestly I feel like I need a system restore and go back to a point in my life where I felt good family/money/friends wise.

Also why do I feel so awkward with people? Why do I say some of the dumbest stuff to people guys in general? There are lots of times where I could catch myself saying/said something stupid and I'm just like "ugh why did I say that?"

Sometimes I feel like it's easier to just be a wallflower and sit back and let life pass on by.

Dreams

I had a really good dream the other night. It was one of those dreams where I wish I didn't wake up from. I wish I could go back to it.