Where are you now?

Sometimes I wonder why I still have friends.

Yesterday I didn't go to a get together one of my old co-workers invited me, I figure they weren't butt hurt about it because no one sent me a text about it. I just wasn't in the mood to socialize and pretend I care about their problems (which is usually about a guy and the whole situation would have been prevented if they didn't overreact to something the guy did or didn't do).

And the people who I really want to hang out with and talk with are busy with their own lives that I don't want to bother them or they just don't live up here. I've always felt like I'm bothering them and I really don't want to be that friend who always calls and sees what's going on and find my way to hang out with them. Yeah I don't want to be that leech friend that people seem to always have.

I just feel like I can't do anything right. My aunt found out I'm out of a job so now she's giving me job advice and telling me where they're hiring. Why does she think I'm on the computer so much? I'm freaking looking at jobs and researching the companies that are hiring. Most of the stuff I've seen and applied for sent me an email saying "thank you, but no thank you" or I do get an interview and I never get a call back (even after sending a thank you email/follow-up call)

I'm stuck in a rut and I don't know if I can get out of it.

Some good news

After stressing out over whether or not I get unemployment, I received a check yesterday. It's a huge load off my shoulders, but I'm still looking for someone to hire me. It's been two weeks since I've heard from the hotel so I'm giving them a call on Tuesday (Mondays are bad for some reason) for a follow up.

Come on higher powers...I'd like to get a job soon.