Day 30 of being unemployed.

I'm losing my mind over here, but at the same time I'm still feeling the same stress level as I did when I was working.

You know what sucks about being unemployed? NO MONEY! I'm about to run out of it! I'm seriously trying to find ways to cover my bills right now. My last resort is to cash out my stocks and just live off that for a while (which I don't want to do).

And you know what else...I'm really lonely. When I had a job, my favorite part was going to work and chatting it up with my co-workers (now friends) heck I even miss some of the customers that came in. Also my aunt said that she was going to get a dog because one of her friends had to give it away, but I think she was just bullshiting and so no dog.

If there's one lesson I learned it's don't get your hopes set on high.

Song of the Moment

FM Radio (Schuyler Fisk and Tim Myers) - Be My Only



I can tell by the way you look at me
you need to be mine
we could sit watch the stars all night till they
disappear into the sky

I am yours
and I know that you're mine
you're worth waiting for
you're worth waiting for

be my only
be my only
be my only
your hand in mine
I swear love speeds up time
and wind blows southern skies
like a lullaby
wasn't hard to fall
your love's a wrecking ball

watch your hands move along my face they trace
all the lines I've lived
it isn't hard to love your scars 'cause that's
everywhere you've been

I am yours
and I know that you're mine
you're worth waiting for
you're worth waiting for

be my only
be my only
be my only
your hand in mine
I swear love speeds up time
and wind blows southern skies
like a lullaby
you're tearing down my walls
your love's a wrecking ball

you're the one I'll compare all the others to
like sunny weather
you're the one that I'll always come back to
forever

be my only
be my only
be my only
your hand in mine
I swear love speeds up time
and wind blows southern skies
like a lullaby
the good the bad I take it all
your love's a wrecking ball

Unemployed.

Unemployment sucks.

It's like I'm getting a lot of interviews, but no one is saying "I like you you're hired" and the closest I got the person interviewing me said I would assimilate well at the place, but because I said I got fired it looks bad.

I'm not a good liar, I know that. But I know the one time I don't say I got fired the company I apply for finds out I got fired and won't hire me because I lied.

I just feel really stupid right now and clueless about this whole thing. I have an appointment with EDD next week about my job search maybe they'll give me some tips on closing the deal.